Sunday, July 31, 2011
Best Birthday Present Ever...
Charly Bella opened her eyes just a touch today...to tell me Happy Birthday! What a wonderful day! Updates on Charly's Blog.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Blessing Charly Bella
We are blessing our little Charly Bella today.
Such a special day to do
this on Pioneer Day. I feel like I am going through my own Pioneer
experience with this sweet little girl. When I worry, become afraid, or
start to doubt...I can feel her whisper to me "all is well mom". So
thankful for all that I have. Thanks to all for your prayers and
thoughts in our behalf. I feel so lucky to have this choice experience,
and so grateful for the Pioneers who struggled in our behalf. Have a
wonderful Pioneer Day!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Charly Bella
Today we had the greatest miracle and blessing arrive.
Charly Bella was born today at 12:33 p.m. She is a beautiful baby.
We have created a blog on her behalf to update friends and family on her status, condition, and the miracle that she is. We know that EVERYTHING happens for a reason, and feel extremely blessed to have her a part of our family. We know we will be turning our hearts to the Lord to help us during this trail in our lives. We hope you will follow us on this journey with Charly Bella.
Friday, June 17, 2011
Father's Day 2011
Jaxon and John had a special Father's Day trip to Moab this year. They went camping for 3 days.
Doesn't Jaxon look so cute. Here he is in the back of Johns car all decked out with his "travel gear".
I have been doing okay with the pregnancy, but felt that I needed to
stay home and rest. It was a great opportunity for the boys to spend
some time together.
This is one of Jaxon's favorite pictures. This deer kept getting a drink from the drinking fountain.
I missed them so much, but I know it was a great trip for the both of them!
Thursday, June 16, 2011
10 Year Anniversary
10 years ago I married the best man I have ever met in the world! We've
had our share of ups and downs, but I am so glad we have each other! I
love you baby!!
John was a HUGE sweetheart and brought flowers to one of my offices.
I love the beautiful flowers...thank you sweetie!
I also got a kiss from both of my boys!
John an I both had to work today, so we are looking forward to going to dinner this weekend. We're keeping it pretty low key since I'm 20 weeks pregnant (or thereabouts).
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Easter 2011
Grandma and Grandpa White put on the Annual White Family Easter Egg Hunt. It was a HUGE HIT! Jaxon had a great time gathering up all the eggs with his name on them. I was hoping he would get all the KitKat's for me...but he loves Crunch bars and picked what he wanted.
Jaxon LOVES Easter. He is growing up fast, and it's nice to watch him turn into such a cute little man!
Jaxon with some of his cousins
White White Family Cousin Pyramid!
Happy Easter!
An answered prayer!
So...since my last post... I'm Pregnant!
I can't believe it happened so fast. I'm 12 weeks now, and I'm excited to make it out of my first trimester in the coming weeks. I tried really hard to keep this a secret, but John was so excited...at 9 weeks he went to church without me (morning sickness) and shared the news!
I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I've learned that pregnancy never has any "safe" moments, so I'm cautious all the time, but not overly worried. I also know that I'm not in charge and feel so blessed that we have another chance to be parents.
I'm still working, going to school, and doing scouts. Some weeks it feels like too much. I'm cutting down my classes this summer so I have mixed feelings about that as well - but this pregnancy is definitely taking priority!
I have been maintaining my weight so far, and have gained 2lbs (which is good considering how much I gained with Jaxon). I am trying to eat healthy (even when bagels are the only thing that sounds good...and makes me feel good). I am hoping to only gain 25lbs during this entire pregnancy, so I'm crossing my fingers I feel well, and exercise can still be a part of my pregnancy. I was trying to loose another 10lbs, but right now...that's definitely put on hold.
Jaxon has been so cute! After my last miscarriage...he had mixed feelings about having a brother or sister. A few weeks after my D&C Jaxon came up to me, hugged me, and told me that he had decided he wants a brother or sister. When I asked him why...he said "well, I decided that if I don't have a brother or sister - that my kids won't have any aunts or uncles." What a smart kid! I am so lucky to have him. He has been a super great strength to me, and is learning and growing all the time. I feel so blessed.
I also feel so blessed to have had such wonderful support from friends and family. Thank you, Thank you!
I can't believe it happened so fast. I'm 12 weeks now, and I'm excited to make it out of my first trimester in the coming weeks. I tried really hard to keep this a secret, but John was so excited...at 9 weeks he went to church without me (morning sickness) and shared the news!
I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I've learned that pregnancy never has any "safe" moments, so I'm cautious all the time, but not overly worried. I also know that I'm not in charge and feel so blessed that we have another chance to be parents.
I'm still working, going to school, and doing scouts. Some weeks it feels like too much. I'm cutting down my classes this summer so I have mixed feelings about that as well - but this pregnancy is definitely taking priority!
I have been maintaining my weight so far, and have gained 2lbs (which is good considering how much I gained with Jaxon). I am trying to eat healthy (even when bagels are the only thing that sounds good...and makes me feel good). I am hoping to only gain 25lbs during this entire pregnancy, so I'm crossing my fingers I feel well, and exercise can still be a part of my pregnancy. I was trying to loose another 10lbs, but right now...that's definitely put on hold.
Jaxon has been so cute! After my last miscarriage...he had mixed feelings about having a brother or sister. A few weeks after my D&C Jaxon came up to me, hugged me, and told me that he had decided he wants a brother or sister. When I asked him why...he said "well, I decided that if I don't have a brother or sister - that my kids won't have any aunts or uncles." What a smart kid! I am so lucky to have him. He has been a super great strength to me, and is learning and growing all the time. I feel so blessed.
I also feel so blessed to have had such wonderful support from friends and family. Thank you, Thank you!
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Miscarriage #...
I've debated on whether or not I wanted to post anything about my latest miscarriage experience. But, I've discovered an overwhelming support from those who have been through similar experiences, and I've been so uplifted and forever changed - so I've decided to write a little about the experience.
We found out we were expecting on Christmas Eve. It was a wonderful surprise for us, and we were filled with hope, and a little fear. I immediately scheduled an appointment with my OB, since my last pregnancy in 2007 ended in ectopic rupture and removal of my tube. I walked on pins and needles for a few weeks while we anxiously waited to find out if...in fact, this pregnancy was in my tube, or in my uterus. Finally, the all of the results were in, and everything was fine. The sac was in my uterus, and the fetal pole was located. We were thrilled. We thought that we had passed all the "scary" parts of pregnancy that we had previously experienced.
We told Jaxon, and were planning on announcing at exactly the 13 week mark on Valentines Day.
Because my pregnancy are all considered "high-risk" I had weekly monitoring and ultrasounds. on Jan 21st I went in for my routine weekly visit thinking nothing of it. It seemed to take forever to finally see the Dr, but I was relieved that he had the ultrasound machine all hooked up and ready for me. He had some troubles with the machine itself, and switched machines in the middle of the ultrasound. I thought nothing of it. Then, with the newer, high-tech device...I could see the look on his face...and my thought was "uh-oh". He began to explain to me that the fetus no longer had a heartbeat and things were not looking good. I started to fade out and think to myself, "but it's not ectopic, so what's the matter"....
I finally pulled my thoughts together and understood that the baby's heartbeat had stopped on the same day of my last visit. So, it had been one week that the baby had stopped developing, and there I was thinking I was still pregnant the whole time. I still felt sick. I still had all the normal pregnancy signs, only I didn't sleep that week - not hardly at all. I woke up several times in the night wondering what in the world was keeping me from my much needed rest. Well, I know now that it was a sign that something just wasn't quite right. Almost like my body knew, but my mind was totally unaware.
The Dr. continued to explain to me that I could wait until a natural miscarriage, or have a D&C. He recommended a D&C due to the fact that there was no blood in my uterus, and it could be weeks, and even a month before my body realized that the fetus was dead.
So, the D&C was scheduled, and I broke the news to John. It was hard because after my Dr. apt I had to take a test for one of my classes, and wow, talk about not being able to focus...that was incredibly hard. As much as I wanted to break down and just cry...I couldn't - I had things to do. Finally after what seemed like forever - I left the library, and called John. He was so incredibly kind, understanding, and sad. He left work immediately and met me at home with the most incredible humongous bouquet of flowers I have ever seen. He was really remarkable. Of course, the moment I saw him...I broke down in tears. What I experienced after that was so touching and spiritual, that it's not appropriate to share on a blog, but it was a real testimony of my love for my husband, and my part in this wonderful Plan of Salvation.
The day of the D&C came soon enough. I was anxious, nervous, and ready to just get it over with. When I finally arrived home that day, I was surrounded by my true friends who made meals, called, and cared for me and my family. It was so inspiring and uplifting, it was hard to be sad, but I was truly morning the loss of this pregnancy.
My friend Roshanna came over with her husband the night before. She has been through this several times, only - much worse. Her husband and John gave me a blessing. I really do feel so grateful for that experience. I remember praying more for Roshanna than for myself.
The recovery was pretty standard. I had a few minor complications, and had everything treated. I think the hardest part was having my body adjust to no longer being pregnant, and getting my emotions back in control.
Everything has changed for me since this last experience. This has been the hardest miscarriage for me...much harder than the other three. I feel that I have been inspired, and directed, and am in the process of changing a few things in my life - to eliminate stress. I've also had a greater desire to be a mother. I love my Jaxon so much, and am so blessed to have him. He fills a part in my heart that I am so grateful for, and he has been my little man through all of this.
I do know that somehow I have children waiting to get here, I just wish I knew when and how they would come. It's part of the learning, growing, and having Faith process - isn't it. I also know that this has been an experience that has shown me who my true friends and family are. I know that I couldn't do this without their support.
I now understand that what I went through was much more common than I thought before. So many women have endured so much in order to bring our little ones here. It's so inspiring to hear all of their stories, and how their experiences have touched my life for the good. I am grateful for my husband, for his love, his kindness, and how much he has truly changed over this last year. He really is one amazing man! For now, I'm moving forward and doing the best I can do every day. I have hopes that one day I will be a mother again, and have faith that it will happen on the Lord's time.
We found out we were expecting on Christmas Eve. It was a wonderful surprise for us, and we were filled with hope, and a little fear. I immediately scheduled an appointment with my OB, since my last pregnancy in 2007 ended in ectopic rupture and removal of my tube. I walked on pins and needles for a few weeks while we anxiously waited to find out if...in fact, this pregnancy was in my tube, or in my uterus. Finally, the all of the results were in, and everything was fine. The sac was in my uterus, and the fetal pole was located. We were thrilled. We thought that we had passed all the "scary" parts of pregnancy that we had previously experienced.
We told Jaxon, and were planning on announcing at exactly the 13 week mark on Valentines Day.
Because my pregnancy are all considered "high-risk" I had weekly monitoring and ultrasounds. on Jan 21st I went in for my routine weekly visit thinking nothing of it. It seemed to take forever to finally see the Dr, but I was relieved that he had the ultrasound machine all hooked up and ready for me. He had some troubles with the machine itself, and switched machines in the middle of the ultrasound. I thought nothing of it. Then, with the newer, high-tech device...I could see the look on his face...and my thought was "uh-oh". He began to explain to me that the fetus no longer had a heartbeat and things were not looking good. I started to fade out and think to myself, "but it's not ectopic, so what's the matter"....
I finally pulled my thoughts together and understood that the baby's heartbeat had stopped on the same day of my last visit. So, it had been one week that the baby had stopped developing, and there I was thinking I was still pregnant the whole time. I still felt sick. I still had all the normal pregnancy signs, only I didn't sleep that week - not hardly at all. I woke up several times in the night wondering what in the world was keeping me from my much needed rest. Well, I know now that it was a sign that something just wasn't quite right. Almost like my body knew, but my mind was totally unaware.
The Dr. continued to explain to me that I could wait until a natural miscarriage, or have a D&C. He recommended a D&C due to the fact that there was no blood in my uterus, and it could be weeks, and even a month before my body realized that the fetus was dead.
So, the D&C was scheduled, and I broke the news to John. It was hard because after my Dr. apt I had to take a test for one of my classes, and wow, talk about not being able to focus...that was incredibly hard. As much as I wanted to break down and just cry...I couldn't - I had things to do. Finally after what seemed like forever - I left the library, and called John. He was so incredibly kind, understanding, and sad. He left work immediately and met me at home with the most incredible humongous bouquet of flowers I have ever seen. He was really remarkable. Of course, the moment I saw him...I broke down in tears. What I experienced after that was so touching and spiritual, that it's not appropriate to share on a blog, but it was a real testimony of my love for my husband, and my part in this wonderful Plan of Salvation.
The day of the D&C came soon enough. I was anxious, nervous, and ready to just get it over with. When I finally arrived home that day, I was surrounded by my true friends who made meals, called, and cared for me and my family. It was so inspiring and uplifting, it was hard to be sad, but I was truly morning the loss of this pregnancy.
My friend Roshanna came over with her husband the night before. She has been through this several times, only - much worse. Her husband and John gave me a blessing. I really do feel so grateful for that experience. I remember praying more for Roshanna than for myself.
The recovery was pretty standard. I had a few minor complications, and had everything treated. I think the hardest part was having my body adjust to no longer being pregnant, and getting my emotions back in control.
Everything has changed for me since this last experience. This has been the hardest miscarriage for me...much harder than the other three. I feel that I have been inspired, and directed, and am in the process of changing a few things in my life - to eliminate stress. I've also had a greater desire to be a mother. I love my Jaxon so much, and am so blessed to have him. He fills a part in my heart that I am so grateful for, and he has been my little man through all of this.
I do know that somehow I have children waiting to get here, I just wish I knew when and how they would come. It's part of the learning, growing, and having Faith process - isn't it. I also know that this has been an experience that has shown me who my true friends and family are. I know that I couldn't do this without their support.
I now understand that what I went through was much more common than I thought before. So many women have endured so much in order to bring our little ones here. It's so inspiring to hear all of their stories, and how their experiences have touched my life for the good. I am grateful for my husband, for his love, his kindness, and how much he has truly changed over this last year. He really is one amazing man! For now, I'm moving forward and doing the best I can do every day. I have hopes that one day I will be a mother again, and have faith that it will happen on the Lord's time.
Monday, December 20, 2010
Christmas Chocolate Chip Cookies
This is one of my favorite chocolate chip cookie recipes. These cookies are nice and big, the kind you find in a bakery, but even better, because you made them!
4 cups all-purpose flour
1 tsp. baking soda
1 tsp. salt
1 1/2 cups unsalted butter (melted)
2 cups brown sugar (firmly packed)
1 cup white sugar
2 tablespoons vanilla extract
2 eggs
2 egg yolks
3 1/2 cups semisweet chocolate chips or chunks
Preheat oven to 325 F. Grease cookie sheets. Combine flour, baking soda and salt in one bowl. In another bowl, cream melted butter and both the brown sugar and white sugar until well blended. Beat in the vanilla, egg, and egg yolk until the consistency is light and creamy. Mix in the flour, baking soda and salt from the other bowl until blended. Stir in the chocolate chunks by hand. Drop 1/4 cup of dough onto the prepared cookie sheets. The cookies should be about 3 inches apart as they spread a bit. Bake for 13 to 14 minutes (I take them right out at 13 minutes, and they stay chewy that way) at 325F or until golden brown. Let sit on baking sheets for a few minutes before transferring to wire racks to cool completely.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Weight Loss Update
Okay, so here goes, this picture was taken in August, so I'm down a little more since this was taken. It's the holidays, and I'm trying really hard to remember my new healthy habits...
Here I am...
August 2010.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Disneyland or Bust 2010
It wouldn't be a White Christmas without having at least one trip to Disneyland this year. We traded our Turkey Dinner in for a Mouse! John's Parents, his Sister Amanda (& Brad), his Brother Boyd (Angie & the boys) & Aunt Thelma all packed up to Cali together. We had a wonderful time getting away!
We love Animation Station!
We love Animation Station!
Jax & Pluto
We all love Mickey!
We stayed in Newport. Our resort was wonderful. We had a terrific time - just playing, and spending time as a family.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Thanksgiving at Laguna Beach 2010
Going to the beach for Thanksgiving was a great idea! It was freezing, but Jaxon was able to climb through the rocks and see the tide pools. It was unseasonably cold for Southern California, but we didn't miss the snow!
Monday, October 18, 2010
Being Corny at Cornbellys
We love a good corn maze! This year we took Jaxon and his little buddy Parker. We had a blast!
Parker & Jaxon (I made them take turns getting pictures being the "girl"...lol).
Jaxon driving the pedal bike.
Parker doing some quick maneuvers!
Parker & Jaxon (I made them take turns getting pictures being the "girl"...lol).
Jaxon driving the pedal bike.
Parker doing some quick maneuvers!
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